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A girl with inner hope and overwhelming passion for life. Love for literature as an engineer.

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The most cruel and most happy  

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The most cruel thing is that when I am 90% certain that I am gonna pass the driving test, I failed the fourth time. Regulations in USA are rather strict, which is a good thing, but the driving test really drove me crazy. The office who test me said sorry and then left. It seems that I had bad luck whenever a female officer sat beside me. I don't know why, but this is true by so far.

After the officer left, I sat in the car, feeling so upset and depressed, waiting for bmp to come and take me away. After a while, he was not coming, so I had to force myself out and try to find him despite not feeling like moving a little bit. The next picture, I will never forget, I saw him sitting on the stair before the BMW bureau reading with kindle. This picture hit me severelly inner.  I can nearly imagine his happiness if I pass this time, but I failed to bring that smile. I know the result isn't that important for both of us compared with many other things. But still, I was so upset thinking of letting him down.

I called him and then I started crying. I began to think that this is in USA and no one even care, why would I care? I cried as long as I want and at last I stopped till I had enough. I don't want to let people who care about me down, neither to let those who were happy about the result laugh at me, both made me feel so bad. But I had to finally cause the result was out of my control.

The next moment, I though of the capitain of New Oriental School, Yu Minhong. He failer two time in the college entrance exams and he still sticked to win the very last time. Then I wondered why would I need to compare with others' misery to make myself feel not so bad? I know that is because I am still not strong enough. Instead, I would rather take him as role model. He is integral,determined and caring about people. And I got a lot to learn from him. This is the right thing I should do.

Recently, I was upset with the native students at my age. It is so hard to get into their world. I rode with Mike for several days but he asked for Diya's contact information the first time they met. And I can tell where others' interest lies. Most of them are definitely more comfortable talking with people who share the same culture with them. I can't help feeling like being an outsider. This really upset me a lot. But this is something that takes time to change. I understand. And the wiser choice is not being disappointed and then give up comunicating with others, but try to learn from them and change this situation step by step. I am a Chinese and I am pround of myself. There is no way I can't live the way I want when I am in another country.

The most happy thing is always spending the weekend with bmp. He is everything that brings me happiness and I really enjoy every time us being together. The time I love most is Friday afternoon waiting for him in my apartment. At that time, I am the happiest girl in the world. How I hope Friday will last forever.

The most happy thing is that when I felt like I am losing everything, still, I have him by my side. This gives me strength to be strong and positive, to face up to the fact and strive towards the direction we are looking forward to.

The most happy thing is thinking of us being together next year and spending our honeymoon in Athens somewhere in the future. I really like the white houses and the sea over there, from what I've seen in the movie of "the travelling pants''.

The most happy thing is when something cruel happens to you, you can still be brave and positive. This is part of growing up.

I love you, more than anything else.

And I am looking forward to another Friday while working hard!

 

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