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A girl with inner hope and overwhelming passion for life. Love for literature as an engineer.

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This is something opposite to daydreaming and the easiest notion of pure wish for something without really striving to realize it. I've seen an amazing movie telling about things will come true if people truly wish for it. It is telling us that if you want something really so bad and started to simulate the emotion of having it, it will come true in one way or another, sometimes totally out of your imagination, but it came true as real as you have simulated in your brain before. The explanation was that it is the law of the universe that people attract things they keep thinking about and this secret law is so convincing in the movie that you just have to believe.

Well, I don't want to argue about this law of universe scientifically or technically although I am an engineer who is supposed to always look at the scientific side. Actually, it is not that I don't believe it can not be proved scientifically. I just don't think it takes time to study and it is not something that can be explained though superficial investigation. I believe psycologists have spent years studying it and that is why courses and seminar about happiness begin to prevail in United States. Above all these, I just believe it. No, I firmly believe it.

That's why it is better to always think positively cause you don't want to attract negative power.That's why I believe if you wanted something really so bad, you will get it. My own way of interpreting this amazing truth is that, I will try very hard to strive for it which eventually lead me to realizing it. Because I am also a person believing in hard work. Simulation is your brain in necessary, but that simulation needs to be reflected in your everyday hard work showing the universe that you really want it more than anything else, more than anyone else! That's why not everyone get what they wish for, hurdles are there giving everyone the opportunity to prove their determination.

Coming back to my life, three things stand here:
1. I want to live together with bmp every day, being able to share our happy daily details.
2.I want to find my first ideal job in US, being able to nurture my professional skills.
3.I want to put a good ending to my Master study, saying goodbye to the past experience cause I cannot achieve today or the future without the basis I laid here with help and mentor from others.

Looking them in this order, it occured to me that I may realize it in an reversed order. The order doesn't matter and the three things are definitely involved with each other.
One:
We used to wish that starting from June 1st, 2013, imp and bmp will always be together. I tried to convince myself that this will be true since we both wanted it so badly, especially every time we said our goodbyes. I feel tortured deeply inside and a broken heart which I have to amend myself. And I can see the same thing in bmp's eyes, which forced me to act stronger so that neither of us break down.However, deep down in my heart, I somehow know that it was not going to come true on June 1st because there is just no clue that can lead me to believe it except magic power which is really unpredictable. This was a beautiful wish, I would say. And that wish really sustained our quite a while. June 1st came and it didn't come true. The world is still busy with its own order and we didn't collapse either. We just tried to keep working on it and towards realistic plans that can make this come true. It gradually becomes clearer since we all come to the second year and especially I am graduating soon and planning to find a job to settle down. This is still challenging but we managed to find ways to get ourselves closer. Now, I don't need to convince myself to believe that it will come true while contradicting it silently. Now, my heart totally accepts it and is silently working towards it no matter how challenging.

That is no date that we can put to realize a dream unless the schedule is definite. But there are definitely ways people can manage to get closer to their dreams and finally realize it. Maybe not at the day you dreamed of, but it will come true soon as long as your work hard enough.
Two:
About job hunting, I really didn't spend too much effort on this although I kept saying that I need to find myself a job. And I didn't try too hard to work for my intern company either since at my first internship I was too innocent of what to do to bond with people and the company. I didn't research a lot into the industry I want to work in and even what is the trend of the job market and what type of people they are working for. I am just trying to improve myself alone, do a good job at the company and not caring enough about the market. However, despite the fact that I need to be a strong candidate, it is equally important that I care about the company and study the market. I learned my lesson failures so far. I never heard of any opportunity so far because I am not trying. Not trying is the worst symptom in disguise as people may think that it didn't indicate failure since giving it a try may give some chances. However, not trying is one of worst case as well. It is an indication of cowardness, of being indifferent and lazy. That's why after the savvy rookie workshop, I decided that I will start everything I need to prepare for my future career right away. 
There was one time my advisor called me to tell me about feedback he got from my Emerson interview: your student didn't speak good English and I cannot understand her.This was a little bit too exaggerating and humiliating at the same time considering that the interviewer chatted with me for 30 minutes! However, I have no personal emotion about that because he is telling the truth. I didn't speak good English. Not to mention the college requirements and the fact that my English are probably better than most of my classmates back in school. My advisor was right, I am not in US. There is a different standard therefore. That's why I am totally with him when he told me that if I didn't do a good job, I lose my job and he lose his face. I cannot just think that I want to speak good English, I need to record, reflect and practice. It is not about daydreaming, it is about hard work. I will fortunate about having a professor who cares about me from the bottom of his heart, like what he did for other students. At the same time, I feel the strong urge that I need to really work hard to perfect myself.

If you really want something, don't just say it without making plans accordingly for your everyday and future life. Things don't just come because you want tell others you want them, they come because you prepared everything to welcome them.
Three:
About graduation, yes, writing a thesis without mentor is hard and frustrating sometimes. However, Eric graduated on June 20th, 2013 despite all these difficulties standing before him. Can I say I didn't graduate on time because it is too hard to do so? That's not an excuse. I didn't graduate because I am always walking between alternatives without determined to take one chosen route. There are still resources I can refer for help. I just didn't appreciate and make use of them before. I was so fortunate to work in a lab that has strong industry connections and an advisor who try all he can to create opportunity for us. What I have that I should treasure? Despite the big setback weeks ago, I will strive firmly on my current track to create my fortune.
If you really want to graduate, just sit down and put your thesis together piece by piece. Leveraging all possible resources you can refer to help to better your work.

Finally, I will treasure everything I have and strive for anything I want.

Rome is not built in one day. This may be an old saying but not everyone put it to work. 
What else? Build your Rome brick by brick.


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